i feel like i might be overdoing it...following these new podcasts, the instagram accounts, quotes...i know i'm grasping at things to "keep me on track". they're farther along than i am. how did they start? what did they find challenging? what did they find helpful?
i'm making it this big deal and it's becoming this big deal. when i did dry january, it was just that. to see if i could not drink for a month. i didn't make it a month! i think i made it 26 days.
another random day in april i decided to quit drinking. that lasted a couple of weeks, and then i said i would just drink on the weekends, and then that went out the window.
i didn't quit because i thought i had a problem. but maybe i did. i knew i had a problem, i knew it was a larger amount than normal or occasional.
there was always a tiny voice. saying it was too much, telling me i didn't need to go to the store, that i didn't need to "stock up for the week", to not open that second bottle.
but i did.