and I can’t explain anything to you. i told a friend of mine the whole story of the whole week and she came to the exact same conclusion the four of us women have come to.
I miss gabe. I almost texted him and Goat, but unsure what they would be able to do. I forgot how Goat was there for me when i went bonkers that one night. I should have suggested him rather than the emergency number.
I’ve been living in the kitten IG account and not posting my usual re-reels or whatever. I just started again in my regular account and i saw your IG handles as viewers and i want to cry.
It’s like you’re both here with me and you know everything and how everyone would act. You’d make sure I was comfortable, offering my own blankets and pillows. You’d make tea. You? You’d listen. Quietly. When I thought you’d tuned out, you would say something impactful. We have a short hand of decades of friendship. I want to hold you both and cry. And i am now. Crying and thinking of you. I haven’t really cried but maybe now’s the time?
I miss you both so much. I’m going to look at screenshots of your views.
Much love.
